My Journey through Coaching – Blog 2 of 12
Part 1: A Reluctant Coaching Client by Brandi Alvarez
So why would not I want to do this? I am not sure I do. If there is even the smallest chance I can improve upon myself, if I can become who I want to be, it is worth it. Can the coaching process take a glass half empty kind of girl and turn her into a glass half full? Is it possible to change how you see yourself and the world around you? How you interact with others both personally and professionally? I do not know the answer now. I will see as I continue on this coaching journey.
I am now beginning my first full session and this is so hard I am not looking forward to this conversation. I have no idea what I am doing or where I am going. Several minutes into this I know I no longer want to hear the question, “What else do you want?” again. Honestly, does anyone know? I am not good at answering these personal questions even though there is no right answer. Am I going about this right, should I be divulging so much or am I not digging deep enough? I am being asked about my legacy; honestly I have never thought about it. It really makes me think. Who do I want to be? What will people remember about me? When I respond I wonder if this is me or just a version I think is me.
One thing I am discovering about myself is I cannot see the future; I have a hard time even visualizing 30 days out. I have always hated that interview question, where do you see yourself in 5 years, 10 years. My honest answer, I do not know. I have never taken time out to plan my future. I think I tried it once in high school and I have come nowhere close to that vision. I always feel I don’t know the answer. I knew this coaching session was going to be a lot of questions and planned 90 minutes – have I ever talked about myself that long?